“By night on my bed I sought Him whom my soul loves. I sought Him, but I did not find Him.” vs1
This is most distressing, when we seek the Lord and cannot find Him. It is not as easy as people think, so let us be careful about wandering away.
When tempted, before God revived me, He showed me that He alone controlled repentance: I might NEVER repent, if I put if off, and I might never be stirred again, becoming comfortable in a delusion. He alone gives conviction. What if He lets me go my way, and I never turn? This forced me into repentance because I could not gamble. Then, He revealed Himself in glorious grace and overwhelming power.
Take heed, dear one. The Lord is here now, and He may not be tomorrow. “For He says, ‘I heard you in an acceptable time, and I helped you in the day of salvation. Look, now is the acceptable time; now is the day of salvation (2 Cor 6:2).” He is passing by now, and tomorrow you might be unable to find Him. He hears sinners now, but don’t play with the gospel, as if you can put it away and pick it up easily. Even believers struggle to find Him, so how much more those who’ve never repented? Take heed NOW, while it is called, “Today”. “As it is said: ‘Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion (Heb 3:15).” Do not turn away from such great mercy for a life that perishes, ends in wrath, and has eternal regret.
1 He will be found, if you seek Him. She says, “I will arise now and go about the city, through the streets and the plazas. I will seek the One I love (vs2).” This is what we’re to do. Knock and it will be opened. Seek and you will find (Matt 7:7). The Lord has promised, “For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved (Rom 10:13).” This is without exception! If you call, then He will save you, because He will not deny Himself.
Ask Him to save or return to you for Christ’s sake. Look at the finished work that He accomplished and put your faith in Him. Do not stagger at the weight of your sin. Do not deny His will as Lord, but bow to Him for Him to stretch to you the hand of mercy. When Esther came to the king, he had the right to kill her for coming into his presence, even as God, in infinite justice, has the right to punish sinners who don’t trust Christ. He will, however, receive you, even as Ahasuerus received Esther, because He’s gracious to ALL who come to Him by faith, trusting Christ instead of self. Esther 5:2, “As soon as the king saw Queen Esther standing in the courtyard, she obtained favor in his eyes. The king extended the gold scepter in his hand toward Esther, and she approached and touched the tip of the scepter.” He will receive you, though you are feeble and naked with nothing to give, because God is gracious to sinners.
2 Seek the Lord, even though finding Him is hard. She says, “I sought Him, but I did not find Him. The watchmen who go about the city found me. I asked them, ‘Have you seen the One I love?’ I had just passed them when I found the One I love (vs2-4).’” She sought Him, but He gave no response, so she sought Him more, until the watchmen, or preachers of Christ, pointed her to Him. When discouraged and unable to find Him on our own, He brings us into the assembly of saints, to hear a word from scripture because He’s ordained this means to stir our soul. “For since, in God’s wisdom, the world did not know God through wisdom, God was pleased to save those who believe through the foolishness of preaching (1 Cor 1:21).” No one seeks the Lord and neglects gospel preaching! We didn’t find Him originally, but God gave us someone who knew grace (Col 1:6). Now, He still uses others, even pastors to refresh pastors, and we get to Christ through labor. Use this appointed means.
3 She sought Him, found Him, then wouldn’t let Him go: Let this be us. She says, “I held on to Him and would not let Him go until I brought Him to my mother’s house–to the chamber of the one who conceived me (Son 2:4).” She wasn’t willing to hear a nice word and then part ways, but she HAD TO HAVE HIM for herself! This is what we must do with Christ: “I don’t only want You for a passing feeling, but I want to commune with You. I want to enjoy You as my own.” He will do this for you, even as Boaz married Ruth. He had his choice of women, being so wealthy, but he chose the woman who came to his feet, the virtuous woman who loved the Lord. He said, “Now don’t be afraid, my daughter. I will do for you whatever you say, since all the people in my town know that you are a woman of noble character (Ruth 3:11).” This is how it will be with us, so marry Him. Give Him your heart. Bow down to Him and say, “I will do Your will by the strength that You give”, and He is unable to resist you! You’ve touched His heart because you’ve bowed to His grace: You want Him and all that He gives, having found your highest treasure in the Pearl of Great Price. Our Lord said, “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure, buried in a field, that a man found and reburied. Then in his joy he goes and sells everything he has and buys that field (Matt 13:44).”
Do not fear being all out for Christ. Find Him and keep Him near. She says, “Young women of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and the wild does of the field: do not stir up or awaken love until it pleases (Song 2:5).” He alone satisfies and gives peace, and He’ll be found by seekers.